A Not-So-Good Full-Time Wife

Back to real life as a wife and I feel like I'm pretty crummy. E and I are having a hard time adjusting - I only say that because we've been fighting NINETY PERCENT of the time since he moved back home. It's probably a lot me because I feel like he just makes huge messes. He doesn't agree. I'm just used to a clean house for the past 12 weeks and I don't want it to change.

Anyway - E is still job searching. We've got a few leads... Virginia, Louisianna, Pennsylvania, and some others. All back east though. Oh well. I guess it'd be all right. Some of them will fly us out to see them so that'll be nice. both me and E! We'd probably leave T.

E seems to be so irritated with me and I don't know why.

Seventeen Week Internship Out of State is FINISHED

E is officially DONE with his eternally long internship today! I am so excited! He should be walking in the door anytime!! :) Yeah!

My day was pretty productive. I got another paycheck from Dr. S. That's always nice. It doesn't hardly make a dent in the bills we have though. E thinks he'll just get a temporary job for a while, at least until we figure out where we're headed to. We've come to the end of our financial rope... no funds left.

It'll be interesting to adjust back to having a spouse. I wouldn't have it any other way of course. I've just gotten used to my set schedule eevery day without any outside influences. I'll have to adjust to a second opinion again :) haha. Oh I can't wait!!! I hope again that I'll be a good wife.

Gotta run. I think he's home!!!

To Be A Wife Again

Only one day left and I'll have a husband again... FOR GOOD!! No more being away from each other so much. Boy ~ I sure have missed him. It'll be so nice to see him every day! I talked to E on the phone tonight and I guess he's caught the flu from one of the kids. His supervisor is showing no mercy either. At 10:00 pm tonight he was still at the clinic doing paperwork. I think part of it may be that "finals week syndrome" that E gets when he's stressed. His body just shuts down and he gets really sick.

I finally got the work done for Dr. M.'s office. I charged him $75 since it was such silly work (his thank you cards) and it took forever! But my little income doesn't even made a dent in the bills we have to pay. Crazy! It's a little discouraging I must admit.

 E is coming home today! I've rarely seen him during the 14 weeks he's been living in ... but we only have three weeks left of this. He'll have missed almost half of my pregnancy. Lucky for him!

I got a phone call from a THIRD doctor who wants me to do transcription for their office. I have doctors calling me now! Wow!

We still haven't found a job yet for after E graduates but I have faith we will. Some more companies are sending us applications so hopefully it'll happen soon!

 Heavenly Father continues to bless us with our finances. I know we're being blessed because we didn't put off starting our family. Of course we haven't had extra money very often but I think we've lived pretty good. We haven't had to go without. Maybe by the world's standards we have, but I've loved our life - though I would've loved to see E too :) We've been blessed endlessly. I am truly indebted to Heavenly Father.

Great Quotes from Long Ago

I really appreciated what Joseph F. Smith said in the Millennial Star in 1894... I hope to be able to say this someday as well...

"Father, all that I have, myself included, is Thine; my time, my substance, everything that I possess is on the alter to be used freely, agreeable to Thy holy will, and not my will but Thine, be done."

In 1966, Marion G. Romney stated "the only limitations on you and me is within ourselves." I need to learn to be more passive, humble, and faithful.

The more I learn, the more I realize how unlearned I really am. When I feel I'm doing pretty good ~ that's when I need to sit down and study some real doctrine of the gospel. It always sets me straight.

I had the opportunity to go to the temple yesterday. The first time I've ever gone alone (Note from Lizzy: It had been almost three years and I'd never gone alone. Wow.)I tried to open my mind (despite my nervousness) and I really enjoyed my experience. I feel my mind and my heart has really been opened this week. I thank my Heavenly Father for all He's blessed me with.

Commandments

Today in Relief Society the lesson was on keeping the commandments. The lady teaching wanted the women to help her make a list of commandments other than "the 10." People were saying things like having a garden, keeping a journal, etc. My neighbor was really upset because she didn't feel she was breaking "commandments" because she didn't have a garden. It made ma stop and think.

Commandments help us reach exaltation. I don't know if keeping a garden helps us reach that but it sure makes food storage easier and cheaper. Some things help us better achieve things but we're not necessarily breaking commandments.

I don't know. I've just been brainstorming a little and thought I'd jot down my experience and thoughts.

"Becoming" a Mother

Today was productive. I cleaned the bathroom, the kitchen, and baked bread. I was really sleepy by mid-afternoon and kind of fell asleep while T watched  her movie. Tonight I took a loaf of bread to Tonya and Moses D. 

I don't know why - but suddenly I've been really feeling like a mother. Not that I haven't before, but I feel I do more motherly things. I read at night... read to my baby. I teach T to hop and give loves. It probably sounds silly. Becoming a mother takes a while to settle into. I guess with #2 on the way it's about time!